Take One Step Forward, Take Two Steps Back

…Cause I’m dressed like a cat

Yay Family Guy reference!

Life’s getting weird. I dunno where to begin. But you do stuff, you make change. And it either goes wrong, goes wrong and then goes right, or slowly fades between the two. I dunno where to begin. So, I won’t.

Instead, I’ll just marvel. You make change. Something happens in return. The day to day stuff is exciting, and worth noting. It’s not worth overlooking, it should be appreciated.

But you make change, and change will make you. You kick a pebble, it will hit something it wouldn’t have. While this doesn’t effect you, unless it hits a nearly run down building that then collapses, it changed what small universe was around it. When you return it will never be the same. So, you make change. And you might end up further back than you started, but it will forever change the course of your life.

I dunno where it is either, but I tell you what – I accept it.

I Hate February

Singles awareness day. Groundhog’s Day. It isn’t spring. It’s the worst part of winter.

But, the sun sets later. And rises early. Spring is on its way.

And well, you can find fellow single people to celebrate singles awareness day with – which falls on the Chinese New Year this year. And eating Chinese food is always a good thing…

Oh, and then there’s Presidents weekend, which may give a few of us a day off…

Laura Viers – July Flame

Can I call you mine?

Wow. This CD is really good. I mean, it isn’t great, to be honest, but it’s really good. It’s quite difficult to place into a genre – it’s mostly folky but it a lot more than that. It’s dark. It’s honest. It’s hopeful. It’s uplifting. It isn’t much of a thinker, but it definitely needs to settle in. It isn’t exactly indie-pop, but to call it twee is horribly misleading and it’s too gentle to be indie-rock.

But it’s so much more than that. The opener does what it should do – draw in all your attention, without being the center of attention. The second track is the title track, along with the first single which has a video I posted before. The third track is a surprise, but sounds kinda bland on the first few spins.

After this the CD gets a little hit or miss, but it mostly hits home. “Silo Song” is absolutely amazing, both upbeat and catchy. “When You Give Your Heart” is my newest favorite song – it’s a love song but so personal you can’t help but love it back. It’s also delievered really well.

And that’s what it is about the CD I like. To call it folk is an understatement, because its use of orchestration, no matter how bare, is wonderfully done. Silence is golden, but build up, climax and resolution within a song is even better. Which is what you can definitely find in this CD.

If you can find it, buy it. Trust me. 8/10.

Forgive Me, I Listen To Bright Eyes, pt. II

It’s kind of like walking out a door to discover it’s a window.

*sigh*

The peak and the crest of a wave. Doors open, doors close. I guess it was a tease for what change could be, and what could be changed.

Wow, I just came up with that on the spot…

Perhaps as disappointing as I am, writing and words are my…toys to play with. Ugh, that phrase sucked.

I smile. I sip coffee. I’m with a good friend. Who needs change…

Is This Change?

I dunno what change is. Mainly cause my unchanging previous months were so simple…

Though, I’m doing something with my everyday life. Which it isn’t bringing me closer to my dream job…

Hey, I found this wonderful CD…

Ellipses…

A Pretty Girl Is Like A Melody

Who cares if it’s the dumbest in the world?

*sigh*

Magnetic Fields fan, or worrier? Though, perhaps it’s just a work facade…

OMG XTC Ripped Off The Monkees

You’re supposed to read that as O-M-G/X-T-C/Ripped-Off/The-Mon-kees

Anyways, watch these two videos…

Stupidity Feeds Change

I wouldn’t be in the situation I’m in had it been for logical reasoning, carefulness, patience and planning. You know, the attentive things…

But ya know, I’m still obsessed with failure, disappointment, mistakes.

It’s scary – the other night I was feeling. Longing. Missing. Is this failure? Is this a mistake? Or, is it worth learning from? Is it worth creating from? I think so. I still don’t have a “song” though…

Oh yeah, where’s the Creative part of this blog?

Going To Bore Ya

Oh wait, he says Going to Georgia

I must have a two year complex, or something. Every two years I seem to fall for someone new. Well, that’s not entirely true. I mean, I fall a lot for girls, I must admit. But some are just silly crushes, and others seem to have that aspect of that one afternoon in high school – shoulda, woulda ,coulda…

I won’t go into details, but it’s funny how in this current one I’m not only flip-flopping, but I keep coming up with reasons not to – and then get her phone number. I keep thinking I should call her, decide not to, and then some “great” reason comes about and I text her (fail – what happened to my non-digital communication theory?). I keep thinking how I’m in trouble, or will be in trouble, yet I enjoy every moment we’ve had lately.

Two years ago on this blog I wrote – As I left today, I couldn’t help but feel the same…. Only, I didn’t. I’ve grown. I’ve learned that this isn’t exactly what I’m looking for – and the more time goes on and I learn little more why she isn’t. I’ve come up with my disappointment theory. And well, I disappointed myself. I failed. I’m okay with “feeling the same” as I leave for the day.

But then I overplay that song from above on my way to work today. I think about how when I last saw her, the world threw its light underneath her hair – this is 100 miles from NYC, this is nowhere.

I guess I should say every two years I make some advancement the year before me would be proud of. Which is scary to think about right now. In two years I’ll be 27 – I better settle down fast, or find that someone I’m looking for.

Early January

I like this time of year. Even though it’s freezing.

Being inside is its own reward this time of year. If you’re lucky and have a day off, you can watch the sunset from inside your house.

Twilight seems to last a little longer, as the sun sets. And each day, the sun sets a little later, and rises a little earlier. Even if it’s only by minutes and too cold to be out there to watch it.

The stars are out too if you’re out that early or out that late. And, that dumb to be out that early or late. Orion’s Belt is easy to see too!

It’s a nice time to reflect on things done wrong the previous year. It’s a nice time to plan out what you want to do – and what you should do – this year. And, it’s a nice time of year to start the year off right. If you want to learn a new skill or get a new hobby, now’s the time to do it!

Besides, once the spring is here, you can show it off.