September, already over

September 30, 2008

On October 1st of last year I was so disappointed in myself. I was still at the grocery store. I felt I was just going through the motions, and not at all passionate about what I was doing.

Tomorrow, is October 1st. One year later. 366 days later. And, I’m still at the grocery store. Things have changed, especially in my outlook and my wants, but my desires are still there. It’s now been ~17 months since I gradated, instead of the five last year. And, I’m not editing video or creating video as much as I would like.

I’ve only had one post-college interview, and it didn’t go too well.

I also have made music, including an EP of sorts. I have made short films, although my best work on youtube was spontaneous footage, with no story. And, I’ve seen new movies, and listened to new music. Read more books. But, I still feel I’m wasting my degree.

I’m trying. But that’s about it, isn’t it?

World’s End Girlfriend/River Was Filled With Stories sounds so good right now.


According to this, the world had some how ended on September 10th. Someone’s home made seismic earth detector had ceased to give readings around 8am (something like 2am on the US East Coast). Several other scientists had noticed it as well. So, evidently, we’re are already gone.

This was about 3 hours before the Large Hadron Collider test was scheduled, and supposedly happened. So, the theory currently stands at the earth was destroyed so the scientists wouldn’t destroy it first on October 21st of this year.

I went back to the How To Destroy The Earth site, and eventually found that information, just to see if there was any doubt from the site’s creator if microscopic black holes could destroy the earth. Cause, you know, his information is more reliable than actual scientists.

No wonder there isn’t anything good on TV these days…

10 Days Without Facebook

September 27, 2008

I took the risk, and quit facebook.  Well, not entirely.  My account is still active, my friends are still writing on my wall.  But my status is blank.  I don’t know what your status is.  I don’t know what band you’ve recently added to your favorite music.  I do not know what you are a fan of.

But, isn’t that kind of the fun of living?  Going up to a “stranger” or a co-worker or friend, and saying “Have you seen this movie?  Have you heard this song?  Do you know this band?  Their last album was the best!”

Don’t get me wrong, facebook has some good qualities.  If you wanna make a party a week from now, you don’t have to send out invitation.  You don’t have to spend money on stamps and cards. You can quickly add or subtract the number of guests, by looking at the Yeses.

But, I feel much freer.  I mean, not entirely.  I think if I completely got off the internet I’d feel more free than I do.  But I don’t *have* to keep my information updated.  I don’t *have* to see what you’ve updated on your page.  All I have to do is find you, call you, e-mail you, and ask.  What have you been doing lately?  Oh really, I never knew that.

A real conversation.  I text, specifically sent for me.  Anyone can send out chain e-mails.  Any online company can spam your e-mail.  But a piece of information, just for me, from you.  That is all I need.  And all any of us should need.

Please, get off these social networks.  Keeping in touch is great, but finding a personal way to keep in touch is better.

Keep A Melody

September 25, 2008

I’ll admit, I wasn’t exactly prepared.

I’ve never felt so dependent on two AA batteries…

Oh No

September 22, 2008

It moves. This is more than a hologram. This is a video player squeezed into a magazine cover.

The cover is thick, don’t get me wrong. But we might be one step closer to the newspaper in Minority Report.

This is the second time I posted twice in one day.

Making Up A Rhyme

September 22, 2008

It’s pretty bad.  But I’m sure I’ve done worse.

Oh no, I am older.  24 today.

Oh No, Not Again

September 20, 2008

Oh no, I’m old.

Not quite, I actually have ~30 hours before actually being on this planet for 24 years. But OH MY GOD Has it really been that long?

September 22nd ’07 – I worked.
October ’07 – Going through the motions.
November ’07 – The start of this blog!
December. ’07 – I looked for apartments in Elmira – why??
January ’08 – You call this devotion?
February ’08 – A failed album – you call this devotion?
March ’08 – Attentivism begins, dinners there end. Sniffle (see July)
April ’08 – My EP is released; “Hey Pal” is recorded.
May ’08 – Serial.Experiments.Lain.
June ’08 – I now own a visual reminder of why I wanna make movies.
July ’08 – My aunt passes away 😦
August ’08 – Some real thoughts, for once
September ’08 – Some real conclusions, for once

I don’t feel a day over 21.5.

Chord Organ Blues

September 19, 2008

I cannot recall the first time I heard this song, although what I do remember of the day was that it was late at night, I was driving home from my local Barnes and Noble, and that was playing on the local college station. When I first heard it, I thought “Oh cool, Daniel Johnston.” When I downloaded it, I thought “It’s alright, but it’s pure Daniel Johnston, so I’ll keep it.” Then, I didn’t play it for the longest time.

Up until recently it just sat there in my iTunes library, with a handful of plays at the most. I was making an ‘end of summer mix’ about two weeks two early, but fitting cause the weather is constantly changing as it is. And, cause two weeks later, it really is the end of summer. I needed one other “noise” song, so I chose that. It isn’t exactly noisey, but it isn’t at all poppy or orchestrated or any of that radio-friendly stuff.

The song is really like 5 lines long, maybe, mostly he sings about his chord organ and his blues. Hence the title. But the more I played it, the more I liked it. The song could easily be one of my songs, with the bad but bearable voice, the simple progression and lack of melody. But there’s much more to it than a home-made recording.

In one part he sings For every chord that is played/there is a reward in my heart that is paid/because my soul loves music/and it loves to hear it made. On the surface is sounds silly. The rhyme isn’t particularly great. But think about it – the creative types are like this.

I’m slowly finishing up my first “official” short film, and I love filming it. I love telling people where to stand, where to set up the camera, etc. I love hearing new ideas and bouncing them off each other. I especially love the big laugh we have after someone fucks up and I have to yell “CUT”.

I too love playing the ukulele, as I had made in that long list of loves. But I think that making movies, especially what I have a current plan, will work much better. Yes, I’ve made those one-minute spontaneous songs, in which I can both play and sing at the same time. But my voice is only bearable. My songs have a simple progression, and a near lack of melody.

Top 6 Albums I Own On Vinyl

September 16, 2008

Just cause one day I hope to move out, and will want to display some, if not all, of them.

Pink Floyd – Meddle

The Beatles – Abbey Road

Neutral Milk Hotel – In The Aeroplane Over The Sea

The Beach Boys – Endless Summer

Simon and Garfunkle – Bridge Over Troubled Water

George Gershwin – Rhapsody In Blue/An American In Paris

So, there. My top six. Whenever I move out, I promise a pic displaying those six…


September 14, 2008