Trick or Treat?

October 31, 2009

Hey my few and far between readers – I’m moving! Potentially without internet 😦

Now, I know how much you’ve looked forward to my lack of creative entries daily, but I think you can do without it. Trust me, you can.

I found a cheap place with everything included, except internet or cable, so I’m thinking about “disconnecting” myself from the rest of the world. Not literally, I am going to listen to the radio at my new home and on my way to and from work (speaking of which, I can live on that pay?!?!). But I mean, there have been many times I wonder what I’m doing, sitting behind a computer screen, a TV screen, or even my cell phone screen.

I love keeping in touch. Don’t get me wrong. I love my friends, I love my daily acquaintances (see Mr. London Street’s blog from October 28th – it’s well worth the read, as are many of his entries – for more details), and I love keeping in touch with them. But what’s keeping me from going out and adding friends or acquaintances?

From the looks of things, I might not be able to do such “build up” for the director of the decade, let alone time or money to go and rent all his movies. There might not be daily concerns, thoughts, or just mindless ramblings. There might not be a video, song, or bad drawing uploaded. Although, I do plan on using the time without internet or TV do actually do things – videos, songs, bad drawings.

This means one thing. It’s time I be “attentive” by my classic definition of the word. Focused on others, not myself. Not my desires. Sacrifice is the name of the game.

This isn’t goodbye. I can always go to a Starbucks and use their Wi-Fi (ugh, I hate their coffee though lol). I have a friend who has one of those USB internet/phone thingamajigs, and I’m sure she will visit me with it (please if you’re reading this lol!).

And then I think. Every November 1st in the past 3 years has been so meaningful to me. In senior year of college, I was turned down by my dreamgirl at that time (what a bad idea that was!). Last year, I was able to put it all behind me, and not worry about the past. And now, I’m moving out. On my own. I’m independent. Maybe I am moving on. Maybe I don’t need to hold onto the past, and what was or could have been.

Maybe I am living. In fact, I am.

Happy Halloween!


As I’ve been trying to go out of my way and listen to the four Animal Collective albums I posted over the week(and life threw a whole buncha curve balls and fast balls at me), I realized how difficult it is for anyone to get into this band. But at the same time, I realized how wonderful this band is. How magical they can be. How much they are being missed by the masses.

Now, don’t get me wrong. Animal Collective is an indie rock band, and that’s the best way to describe them – independent rock. They do indeed rock but aren’t afraid to go mellow, relax, thoughtful, or down right scare the Hell out of you. But they weren’t always like this. Unfortunately.

My first memory of the band is probably seeing Sung Tongs listed as someone’s top CD of 2003. I can’t say I went right out and bought it, but I do remember taking note of it, seeing as how I was slowly getting into indie rock at the time. In spring of 2005 they performed at my college’s festival, which apparently is an everywhere kinda thing. They weren’t the freak-folk they were supposed to be. Instead they were noisy. I remember their first song was totally incomprehensible, loud, heartfelt, and strangely moving. I was so impressed with the noise and building I thought it was a religious experience. I didn’t come out of it with any great understanding of life, but building noise music was definitely quite exciting for me. I went and used a Pepsi download for iTunes to download one of their songs – the instant I got home it wouldn’t wanna play cause of the IP Address.

My next real memory of the band was one I can still put my hands on, it was buying their next CD entitled Feels. And at this time I felt very alone. A lot of my college buddies went off to the study abroad program, and I was left by my lonesome with some weirdo I didn’t know. Further, I turned 21 that year, which meant the one thing every college kid has to do – drink too much too often. Fortunately at that time I was in love with wine, and would strangely mix white wine with orange soda (it’s pretty good, really!). But at that same time I would overplay Feels cause it was so good, and it was their “love” album (basically noisy twee pop, but this was before I knew about twee pop). In turn, it made me obsess over a girl at college (oh, the wine too!), which is a horrible thing to do, but hey, love songs, wine, what do you expect?

By the time their next album Strawberry Jam was out, I was a completely different person and in a completely different situation. I was at home, graduated college, and thought I was on top of the world. Only, I wasn’t. The album itself was kinda strange and not what I remembered when it came to Animal Collective. While there were some songs that were quite catchy, there were a lot at the end that kinda went no where – I remember saying it’s a good follow-up to both Sung Tongs and Feels, but it wasn’t what I hoped for. I did love a few songs, most notably “For Reverend Green” because of its over-the-top bridge. But the new direction they were going wasn’t for me – and how fitting, the direction I was going in life wasn’t for me either. Or, so I thought, for both.

Their most recent outing, Merriweather Post Pavilion is absolutely amazing. This is their “pop” record. And while I know many will get the album, many will not think it’s what they hoped for, some will love it but hate their other work, and others will just fall in love. Every song should be on the singles chart (well, okay, not really), or at least used in the latest teen movie (okay, again, a huge overstatement). This really is their pop album, and everything they wanted to achieve. It’s perfect. I wouldn’t give it the high rating Pitchfork did, and personally I think Feels is the much better album (there are times MPP is reminiscent of their other work), but I would definitely tell a friend who has heard of them to give that one a spin.

Since listening to that album, many of their other albums fell into place. Strawberry Jam is wonderful but still difficult. It’s probably got the best song with the best chorus on it (“Chores”‘s “Well I got these chores/and I’m never gonna hurt no one”), both forward thinking and honest. Sung Tongs is so beautiful and homemade it makes you wonder just what you and your best friend can do with a guitar in one of your homes. But this is exactly what the band is about. There can be beauty between two people, either a friendship or a love relationship, or even just hanging out with your newest pal. There is nothing wrong with being yourself, and putting it out there for everyone to hear. You will perfect your craft, you will have people notice you. It isn’t for fame or fortune, it’s just sharing what you think is wonderful about this world. Even if we’re just a collection of animals.

Merriweather Post Pavillion

October 29, 2009

Strawberry Jam

October 28, 2009


October 27, 2009

Sung Tongs

October 26, 2009

Everyone Here

October 18, 2009

Well everyone here/is wondering what it’s like be with somebody else/and everyone here’s to blame/yeah everyone here/gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain/yeah well everyone here/I’m ashamed to say/yeah we’re looking inside we’re the same/we’re the same/but now/yeah but we don’t know how/to get it back to good.


I once wrote my lyrics – It’s okay to reflect, as long as it has no effect. I may still be smiling. But I’m sorry.

We only recently met
True I’m in love with you but
You might decide I’m a nut
Give me a week or two to
Go absolutely cuckoo
And when you see your error
Then you can flee in terror
Like everybody else does
I only tell you this cause
I’m easy to get rid of
But not if you fall in love
Know now that I’m on the make
And if you make a mistake
My heart will certainly break
I’ll have to jump in a lake
And all my friends will blame you
There’s no telling what they’ll do
It’s only fair to tell you
I’m absolutely cuckoo

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Magnetic Fields fan or a confession?


October 16, 2009

On, off. One, off. On, off. I didn’t mean to put that ‘one’ but it’s a nice typo…

Every year this happens. It gets cold, I feel like I’m wasting my life and I’m not doing anything. Life has really thrown it at me this year – youth in a weird way, age in another weird way. Starting up and settling down. Breaking up and breaking down.

It’s only October (another reason for the 1-0/10 title), and it’s freezing. I’m actually worried about driving in snow tomorrow. But I should be smart, and realize that Brian Shields said the northern part of the county to the north; not this county.

I remember at one point thinking that 2009 was going to be my goof off year, as if my parents would appreciate that. Turning 25 and still goofing off, hrm… On the other hand, I’m glad I did when I did. I wouldn’t have made a short film I made, and I wouldn’t have made a song I wrote. I wouldn’t have obsessed over a movie, and thus a director, and in turn being able to see that director in person. But still, here I am. 25 and goofing off.

Everything seems like it’s building up to something, only to reach a plateau of calmness. Every job applications becomes a “at least they were interested.” Every apartment becomes affordable, but unattainable. Everyday becomes another thing I did, or another day I survived. But it’s the same thing in the long run.

But then, it hits me. Every idea is become magical and performable. Every word has a rhyme. Every story has a deep meaning I want to tell others, no matter how simple. And every disappointment is another to write in that disappointment philosophy. They really are just as important as our accomplishments.

It’s only October, I still can do one last thing.

Are We Starting Again?

October 12, 2009

Reading and replying to someone else’s blog always get me thinking. Either about me or what the person wrote about or some in between where I don’t sound too arrogant. But I’ve been thinking all day.

I have a new plan. I don’t know if it will work, but it seems to make sense to me.

I wrote a reply on someone’s blog, and only wrote one reply on that message board. I even looked at the featured wordpress blogs, before writing this one. Maybe I will read blogs more…

I’m starting to not get concerned with what’s right and what’s wrong. I’d rather just do what I like or want, and don’t really mind how others react to it.

I’m starting to think that coffee at night isn’t the best of ideas. But then again, it is getting cold. And I should move the car. So maybe I will get coffee later – there is a new book I’m interested in! Oh yeah, maybe I should tell someone I do have a favorite kind of comic book. Stupid Jeffrey Brown – in more ways that one lol.