This Past Week

February 27, 2010

There are about four major parts of my life, when I get down to it.

One, was just being. Not living. Not existing – although, you can’t be if you don’t exist. But this was young me. Simple. Being pushed along. My ultimate goal was to make friends and rate records.

Secondly, there was existentialism. This was my last year of college, and a year or two after. Coffee was a necessity. Time was limited. This consisted of doing, although where the line was draw between doing good or bad (or accomplishing) was nowhere to be found.

Up until lately, it was what I titled ‘Modestism’ or ‘Apathism’. Its ultimate goal was to play fair. The motto of – There are things I haven’t said, and there are things I haven’t done. And I’m sure it will continue. But I suddenly lost the passion of living, and was reverting back to making friends and rating records.

Now, I return to what I once refered to as Attentivism – this blog was the birthing place of that lack of movement. Its motto – focus on attending to others. Its ultimate goal – to inspire others to continue. To do something big, as long as its for others.

I spent a lot of time alone this past week, being snowed in. I didn’t create anything. I wouldn’t say I had a date (though, I did go out with one friend a lot). I did read a book…

But anyways, now I see what this week was for.


100 Word Challange: This Week

February 21, 2010

A date would be nice. Although, I dunno if my latest fancy was a great idea.

Something made at the end of the week. I like to pride myself on my creativity, perhaps actually making something would be a good idea.

Read a book. I can take out that Camus book from the library again. Besides, I’ll have the time to walk there this week!

Visit my folks. I haven’t seen them in a while. I’m there right now. Why am I writing on my blog?

Find excuses to write on my blog. I mean, I gotta do something this week!

I’m On Vacation

February 20, 2010

…’til the end of the month…

Does anyone else remember that?

Well, I’m on vacation, a much needed break from work. I already am having fun – last night, before vacation started, I was burning the candle at both ends. Out late, up early. Lotsa fun I hadn’t had in a while.

Today at work I was surprisingly quick with my work – I tried to make jokes about not usually doing work but my audience just had to one up me… But I was also my usual social self – sometimes that makes me take forever checking sales.

Tonight I went out and gambled – got none of it back. But that’s what vacation is – don’t worry about the outcome, just live for the moment. Enjoy the time while you have it.

I dunno what I’m doing, I was hoping to go to the city for a few days. But it might snow. And the end of this week is my mom’s birthday, so I can’t be in the city then of course… But perhaps I can busy myself around here. Should it snow I can always make my ‘Snowed In’ movie idea. And perhaps get a cup of coffee or something with a friend here and there – oh wait, I gave up coffee for lent.

But for now, I’m just sitting here, using a friend’s laptop enjoying what time I will have off, although it’ll go way to quick. But I’m a firm believer in taking vacation while you can, because if you worked all year ’round, you deserve it. So, here I am, enjoying it…

I hate Valentine’s Day.

Hate is passion. Love is passion.

For once I don’t know what to do this Valentine’s Day. Usually it’s no one, occasionally it’s one. Now it could be two. But I’m probably just dreaming…

I can follow through with plans – which should be enough, for both. I can change plans, but I think that will ruin what I have. I can just ignore the fact, but that doesn’t change the fact.

However it’s also the Chinese New Year. I can let things be. Let the pieces fall where they may – as long as I come out fine.

Cause I’m dressed like a cat

Yay Family Guy reference!

Life’s getting weird. I dunno where to begin. But you do stuff, you make change. And it either goes wrong, goes wrong and then goes right, or slowly fades between the two. I dunno where to begin. So, I won’t.

Instead, I’ll just marvel. You make change. Something happens in return. The day to day stuff is exciting, and worth noting. It’s not worth overlooking, it should be appreciated.

But you make change, and change will make you. You kick a pebble, it will hit something it wouldn’t have. While this doesn’t effect you, unless it hits a nearly run down building that then collapses, it changed what small universe was around it. When you return it will never be the same. So, you make change. And you might end up further back than you started, but it will forever change the course of your life.

I dunno where it is either, but I tell you what – I accept it.

I Hate February

February 2, 2010

Singles awareness day. Groundhog’s Day. It isn’t spring. It’s the worst part of winter.

But, the sun sets later. And rises early. Spring is on its way.

And well, you can find fellow single people to celebrate singles awareness day with – which falls on the Chinese New Year this year. And eating Chinese food is always a good thing…

Oh, and then there’s Presidents weekend, which may give a few of us a day off…